Wow. Its been over a year and a half since I wrote those pages of introspective rambling. I would say it is far time for an update. A couple of sections will emerge once again… more thoughts and thoughts on what I like, and a look in the mirror-am I practicing what I say I want to?

When I wrote those pages originally, as I think it is easy to tell, I was in a rather bitter period of my life. Enough events had transpired over the past, well, 7 years while I was at university, but primarily the previous 4 that had radically changed my views on life, the universe repeatedly beating my naive notions about people and about life out of me. This is not to say that I am all roses again, for I have learned my lesson. It is our life experiences that shape who we are, just as much or even more so than our genes. What we experience, what we learn and see, and how we are treated will shape us, shape our values and shape our philosophies on life. What I have said then I still hold true to-especially the 3 basic tenants of Be Fair, Be Honest, Be Kind. What life and what people have subjected me to have lead me to my attitudes.

That is certainly not to say that I don't feel a loss for the 'innocent simplicity' that I have lost. In the end, I feel I have become stronger, I feel I have become more in tune with the realities of the universe, but there are certain, basic, primal feelings of joy, companionship, love… that I fear I have lost. I hope all it will take is time and some positive events to re-kindle those basic passions. Coupled with that is a lack of confidence that manifests itself in many things that I do (or try to do); a void that hampers my expression and creativity (most noticeable for me in architecture, my chosen field). This too hurts my interactions with others, always second-guessing myself, wondering how the other will perceive me, whether they will pay me serious attention, whether they will forget everything, including me, soon thereafter. Something has been lost and it is driving a nail into many an area.

Anyway, let the ramblings begin. These pages were ment to be a repository of my various ramblings and musings. So, let me begin.